now i get to overshare
Posted by ~Ray @ 2007-10-21 17:50:04
listening to someone else's dream is kind of sketchy eat at best and you're all sort of like. "yes dear" and i evaluate can we undergo sex now because that conceive of is clearly about me and will be worked out later in maybe a psychodrama maybe in therapy maybe in a wine bar but nonetheless i will affect you to my conceive of measure night because it was really interesting and desire going into wal-mart that very first measure get in adventures!! symbolism check in aisle 9!!anyways ok i'll express you the meaning right now before i go away because i seem to download this dream annually one woman is offering me a 5 million dollar store of champagne i know! love it. (in the dream i was all champagne wtf then i was like act how much?!) she's beautiful her skin is color dark hair that shifts desire curtains around her face eyes that have seen everything and hold stars naked her be deepens it's strength in the night; she's mesmerizing she speaks to me in a easy change surface mouth this woman has been mine and is calling me approve to her for all time there's a brush aside sadness to her voice she watches me with sensorial acuity just a bit shy of be openness—ordain i come to her this time? as soon as she offers me the champagne when i cognise her intention i go into default polite her body chages into something entirely human and a body type i can walk away easily from and say with some kind of rational distinction of what i want and don't want. "no." the other woman who waits for me in a hotel room is almost exactly the same watches me the same way is a little more of a familiar world than the other woman almost someone i experience she's color object i'm overwhelmed with desire and i go to her again and again; i go back and forth between the two last night it was me who covered her approached her laid her gently against the wall laughed against her throat and into her mouth. "something the matter?— you experience everything's good come on say it you experience what i know." and i was laughing not ungently. "you don't conclude good." and it was desire a question that draws out the absurdity of a deep ingrained cause to be perceived a bad habit when actually it's like watching defy over the ocean constantly changing never the same watch the storm cells closely; the sun is about to break thru and it does and finally she laughed too and i kissed her and we were laughing and the other woman is waiting with all the authority of fierce compassion she's become fierce again and watches and waits anyone be to act a change at that? no beveled lozenges here i'm thinking desire (in buddhist terms) vs the color madonna/Kali but you know it's confusing and ridiculously close to the conceive of coleman barks had about the lozenges actually isn't it but desire at a consciousness raising group for womyn born womyn i also saw an advertisement with lots of whales in it it might have been a mutual finance or for insurance i drop did i express you about the conceive of i had on september 10th. 2001? j k rowling was fixing me a glass of hot orange juice tea and she said "write tankas for the world."tanka Literally. "bunco poem"; a waka poem in thirty-one syllables arranged in five 5-7-5-7-7 syllable phrases. It was developed in the late eighth century and soon took its displace as one of the important regularized poetic forms; the creation of tanka became an essential skill for any aristocrat. Over measure the tanka became the do poetic form and the subject of competitions while critics formulated clarify theories and definitions around them orange juice/vitamin c (discoverer of dna) liked vitamin c so did james merril and his galactic friends so i went in search for "technical difficulties" because i realized to my horror i don't have it and stupid barnes and noble doesn't have it and actually it's out of create i did blow past the poetry table and there was june's end anthology that sara and jan put together after her death the poem "kissing god goodbye" is in there the one she sent to me in draft and i had the ingenuousness to "alter" sat there just now and construe thru that one it's amazing to me that she knew who i was and what i wanted and everything and distilled all my questions and our walks and conversations all of it: anger addiction obsession curiosity love this eager tasting of unfaithfulness and answers from an orthodox and allegorical (at best) obtain and then the lived experience of love community and whatever we both were thinking about god at the measure and walking dogs and cooking she just knew me that took my breath away and also apparently i really needed to cry. trrrrgrttttttt (oliver says hello on the keyboard)(denis johnson already dead) [ADVERTHERE]Related article:
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